Saturday, June 09, 2007
i know i should be understanding.
no one can really understand the other so perfectly well that they knew em inside out, right?
afterall, im stuck with my brain and body for a goddamn 20 years(almost) and sometimes i feel that i barely know myself.
so its really too much to expect for someone to really know what my "complicated" mind is thinking.
the point is, i don't even think that it is complicated. at least, not for the time being. i was being pretty logical, i din even play my usual guessing games. i told u, perhaps not so patiently, how i feel exactly at the point of time, and just try my very best to make u understand how i feel.
maybe our thinking are so different that we can't even agree on a simple thing like this cos both of us just happen to think that the other's point of view is warped/wrong/ridiculous. whatever.
and no, i don't want to agree on "our thinkings are different" and that's that.
i don't want either one to say, "as long as you're happy, so be it".
because its not the way that a relationship works.
and "giving in"(or so u think) to me, doesn't make me any happier.
i wanna solve the problem, and cover the gap in between us.
i want the each of us know how the other feel, and understand. instead of just letting it be.
i'm angry, frustrated at myself, for not being able to get my point across.
and at you, for making things so difficult.
is it so difficult for u to change ur thinking just a lil bit so we can compromise each other?
or you rather pretend to be happy, thinking that i'm happy. when im not.
it's just a perfume. but it sure show how much we have drifted from each other without really realising it.
