angelineee
studying in SP dba and hating it.
extremely lazy.
insecured
maybe a lil too straightforward for her own good.
procrastinates alot.but once again, who doesn't?
have weird fetishes fer guys on the feminine side.
usually sleepy when not sleeping.
loves starry nights.actually, im a night owl.:P
bad at telling lies.
paranoid
loves ben & jerry ice-cream
finds it hard to trust anyone, anymore.
cries pretty easily, but hate tearing infront of others.
has hots fer katherine moennig<3
loves my baby(:

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have i really gotten over u?




...tell me why i feel so empty sometimes.

...i recieved tp's reply.


'due to the overwhelming responses from our courses application,we regret to tell u that we couldnt offer u a place of study'.




-heart sinking-


its really my last hope,u know.
tell me,what m i supposed to do?
take private?
werk one more year?
try sp?(which is another waste of time loh..i wil prolly get the same reply)


tell me why the hell m i so damn suay??!!!!



....im eating too much.
okok,i noe its outta point.



WAH CHAO WHY!!!!!
$%@^%$^#$&%^%*%$
tink i shall go slp first.

n ppl out thr reading this,pls give some advices..
im totally lost.

i hate being sick and stil hafta go to werk.


what the heck..stupid.shldn't have wenta c8...so many things happened.
i really don't mean to hurt u..



ugh.i feel so bad.:(
...and kinda freaked out.




bleah.
and look,if yer mad at me,say so.and tell me why..
i never liked mind games.

-feeling super pekchek-

i think my colleagues knows whats going on,but they aint telling me anything.i can see it in their eyes.
ugh. >:0

my cover's blown.



sobs.



and huiwen,can u just tell me what the fark did my dad told ya?


com's screwed,i can't type my resignation letta.HOW!!!!

tired!!!!



waiting fer the stupid huiwen to come ova..she says she is,anyway.betta nt put aeroplane loh..i'll kill her.im waiting fer her nw nt i din even go bathe yet,cuz im scared tt she wil reached while im bathing..-.-


went to watch movie ytd..watched 'creep'.
one of the lousiest horror movie i've ever watched loh.
no story-line,nt scary,and it makes no sense at all.
..i admit i got creeped out at certain parts..used his file to hide my face summore:P

...okay huiwen reached ma hse ler.she brought vodka summore.-.-''

ciaos..

time to do some soul-searching.

one more day and its ma off day!!! "D


finally.





i love u huiwen.lol,srsly.



n its diet time!!! im gainin back the what i've just lost.wtf..


my com is screwed.kthxbye




p.s- i think fwenster's horoscope is pretty accurate.lol.

haven't been really werking this past few days...been slacking like hell. maybe its cuz of the lack of customers,maybe its due to PMS,maybe its cuz of the lack of slp..

don't know.can just nuah there the whole damn day and go k3 to sing,listen to music,or go bar thr slack.that is,if joe's ard la..else thr's no smoking kaki also..
i hate it when biz is poor.i hate being alone at the recept.
when thr's hardly any customers all ma colleagues will be either at da bar or nowhere to be seen.i can't be in da bar with em at the same time,michael wil kill me.


and thats when my tots starts to run wild.i can think of the crappiest thing,the stuffs tt really made me feel darn sucky. thr's so much 'if's....
and i always tend to contradict myself.


im thinking of quitting.but i kinda cnt bear to leave as well..its practically my 2nd hm alr.


on a happier note,im meeting muili and sl tmr! if i can wake up tt is..
i'll set ma alarm..juz hope i CAN wake up.


i dun wanna be stuck feeling this way all the time.but i just can't help missing u.

just came back from supper with joe...-.-'


dalvin and 2 otha dunnoe hu r thr as well..think they r the bartenders also la.
damn sian loh..almost rot thr.but the tian ji zou is so nice!!!:D



haiiiiiiiii.
i don't know what i wan.

what an ass....................



gt gf alr totally fergot abt us.


he dun even bothers to send night msgs alr.NOT even when i send him also..
and he doesnt reply my text msgs at all.
what the hell.




to hell with him.



im feeling so goddamn bad now..have i hurt other ppl's feelings w/o knowing?
-guilty-
sighs,i really don't know what to do..


i stil can taste the blood in my mouth.
maybe im dying..

I JUST SPIT BLOOD OUT.


its not like a lil bit or sth,its totally blood.
lots of em.




omfg,whats wrong with me?

lol seems to me everytime thr is werk,thr is liquor afta tt..



and im puking practically everyday like im having some kinda eating disorder.
like it ever makes me skinnier.



what the hell am i doing?

he is everyting i wan,he is everyting i need.

but he means nth to me and i don't know why.

my dad is irritating me.AGAIN.


hey fuck,like i wanted to go ITE.im trying hard to get into poly aiight,he always think hes right,always think he knows me at all.when in actual fact HE DON'T.NOT EVEN A SINGLE BIT.

can't he just leave me alone and let me be?


he only will make me NOT bothered to tell him any of my stuffs MORE.
whats the point anyway.whatever i do is wrong.
LIKE THE ADVICES HE EVER GAVE MADE SENSE.


and i hate the way he fucking insults me everytime.
this time i aint even really bothered.i just kept my headphones on while he continues yakking away.
y shld i anyway?whateva he said only makes me feel like crap.
WHICH I DON'T NEED KTHX.


life just sucks.

my keyboard is SCREWED!!! what the hell..i can't type all the q's and a's and w's without some other alphabet popping out..super irritating can..


ytd joanne baoling and huiwen wenta ms again..i din get to go.:( was werking..

met up with em afta i fang gong..check into some hotel..
afta tt..its SHEER MADNESS..

we jumped ard,played dices,drink,and played truth or dare.its hella fun..and we learnt alot of things fr each otha..hah. (((:


im wanted to blog more,but the stupid keyboard is driving me nuts.


im over u.not totally,but im halfway through.
we r just norm friends... ;)-

listening to zui dong ting..


thx fer talking to me xm! :D tho i had a hard time falling aslp back thx to ur bhb-ness.. :P j/k..


wo xiang yao kan zhe ni de yan jing,ting jian ni de sheng ying..bu guan duo xiao sheng wo hui yong xing de ting..bu guan duo xiao sheng,duo xiao sheng,wo ye hui yong xing,yong yi,zai yi de ting..


:(

think im dye-ing my hair black.jet black.in a few weeks time i think.




it fucking hurts...
but at least,i finally know..


Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I just stared out my window
Dreaming of a could-be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)
Trying not to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway
[Chorus:]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway
[Chorus:]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around wild indoors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway
I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

SHIT UUUUUU





I SRSLY WISH I CAN HATE U RIGHT NOW.






goodbye.i nv wanna see u again.

tian shi scolded me..


haha.not tt im angry..what he said is so true.im just so stupid..what fer?its like practically im giving up my future,fer nothing..


what he've said kinda slapped me awake.i couldn't risk it..i'll prolly regret for life.



I.WILL.GET.OVER.IT.
i must.

replying rp's email right now..hope it isn't too late.

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Edited:got this new server in c8..in da same transport with me.at first i din really liked her,find her a lil over friendly and..a lil proud.but now i think shes quite sweet..(: haha.maybe im just abit taken back her frankness and all bah..


wenta tampines ite to apply today.and i just received RP application thingy.i got accepted.so whr shld i go? my friends told me RP sucks..rather go to a good ITE and all then go to poly..
blehs.in a dilemma now..trying to weigh the pros and cons..RP still nid to buy lappy man..and its goddamn far.hais..

b r o k e n.





learning to let go-

I almost got drunk at school at 14
Where I almost made out with the homecoming queen
Who almost went on to be miss texas
But lost to a slut with much bigger breastes
I almost dropped out to move to LA
Where I was almost famous for almost a day
And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn’t cut it
Almost loved you
I almost wished u would’ve loved me too
I almost held up a grocery store
Where I almost did 5 years and then 7 more
Cuz I almost got popped for a fight with a thug
Cuz he almost made off with a bunch of the drugs
That I almost got hooked on cuz you ran away
And I wish I woulda had the nerve to ask you to stay
And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn’t cut it
Almost had you
And I didn’t even know it
You kept me guessing and now I guess that
I spent my time missing you
I almost wish you would’ve loved me too
Here I go thinking about all the things I could’ve done
I’m gonna need a forklift cuz all the baggage weighs a ton
I know we’ve had our problems I can’t remember one
I almost forgot to say something else
And if I cant fit it in I’ll keep it all to myself
I almost wrote a song about you today
But I tore it all open and I threw it away
And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn’t cut it
Almost had you
And I didn’t even know it
You kept me guessing and now I guess that
I spent my time missing you
And I almost had you
I almost wish you would’ve loved me too

GUESS WHAT PPL? i received a complain letta..ABT ME! i have this weird feeling tt it gotta be one of the staffs in MY very own outlet...


aiyah fark.and one of the dua tao actually came down to asked me about it.wtf man.


i srsly feel like dying.



WHY IS IT SO HARD FER U TO JUST TELL ME? i just wanna hear it from ur very own mouth..
thr isn't any reason not to tell me,is thr?



:(


and my pay is crap too.



could you look me in the eye,and tell me that you're happy now?

woke up suddenly.i only slept fer only 4 hours? hah.asked about his TP..he flunked it.


wenta ms ytd with joanne huiwen and baoling.i've learnt something maybe i shouldn't know..is it good or bad?
and i've realised tt im wrong to say all those stuffs about bl..



i feel like shiat now.:(




still abit nauseous.hah..hw true when ppl says u get drunk easier whenever yer upset.


and guess what ppl? I GOT REJECTED BY NYP..
hell yea.


thrs no meaning in this stupid life of mine.



whats the point of giving urself hope? it will end up a bigger disappointment anyway.one good example,me.



i think im going back to sleep.

MOTION SICKNESS!!! again...-.-''



-gags-blehs..hate it,somemore my transport uncle drives horribly.
:(

anyways.wenta town today! :D with joanne and travis..watched miss congeniality 2.quite nice a movie lar,pretty funny. tho joanne was a lil weird during the movie..0.o.questioned her but she said nth.hmmm.. and ooohs! we took neoprints..haha.been so damn long since i last took neoprints..

afta tt wenta kbox..AGAIN..-.- cuz we don't wanna go back hm so early..travis headed to punggol to mit his fwens fer supper.plus he gotta slp early cuz tmr he's werking..
haha..sang like we're crazy..talked a lil..actually intended to ton at esplanade afta that..summore joey was giving the stupid 'u-noe-if-yer-not-werking-today-u-can't-take-the-transport-hm' attitude..den bth loh.but in the end we still did..lol pretty stupid.think joanne is tired also lar,din really slept much last night..and afternoon gotta mit us alr..


having a slight migraine.ugh..must be the lack of slp.what the hell..supposed to slp well during ma off days,but i'm having trouble tryin to sleep..



MS TMR!!!:D




totally,flat broke. :(

okay i just browed thru beyond belief's webbie.and im very,very creeped out. :/


bleahs.i gotta do someting to overcome my curiousity.


andd im getting quite annoyed about all the poly stuffs already.>:0 aiyah if i go ite,at least there's someone fetching me to school.at least,thats what he says laaaa..haha.


then again...




l;ajdf;lajoieprwuqor@%!1345^724



HAIS.

just finished watching blade trinity..


u know what guys?


i think im going itc.-.-''
lol..anyways,its stil da same lar,go thr fer 1 yr and head to poly year 2.
sighs..cannot help it.the stupid NYP still haven give me an answer yet.think im going to apply tmr or sth..else too late den dieee...

kinda desperate now..even applying for RP in case if there's no sch wants me.:( so pathetic..
sighs.whats the point of regretting now?

looking at the bright side..i hope i can go to da same sch as travis and joanne..at least got ppl i know.:P

i almost got that darn mosquito;
i almost scored that goal.
i almost had that special someone;
i almost let him know.
i almost scored an A;
i almost won that prize.
i almost escaped unhurt;
i almost died in your eyes.
i almost did a pullup;
i almost knew the answer.
i almost made him smile;
i almost made it last awhile.


'Almost.one of the saddest word in life.'

THE EYE 10,ANYONE?!!!




got a glimpse of it while waiting fer my goddamn transport,and I WANNA WATCH IT!!! like damn nice loh..tho i hate horror movies. anddddddddddd its FINALLY my off day.waited fer so damn long..so i don't hafta go to werk fr sunday to wed..:D gonna catch up on my sleep and of cos,movies!!! so many movies i wanna watch.. but im very broke tho. :/ why can't my pay comes earlier?!!! and the stupid hp bill..don't even know how i use de..240 bucks!!! whaddafuck!?siannn.. gotta do sth abt it alr..


gotta spend my sunday at hm..watching vcds and sleep! okay it sounds boring to u guys,but i haven really had a quiet off-day all to myself fer dunnoe hw many donkey months already.sighhhsss (((((:


now im waiting fer my parents to wake up first so tt i can watch white noise before i go to bed.:D

joanne!!! i miss u..haha.anyway thanks fer listening to me and all yea,(:
TUESDAY! heh..


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