angelineee
studying in SP dba and hating it.
extremely lazy.
insecured
maybe a lil too straightforward for her own good.
procrastinates alot.but once again, who doesn't?
have weird fetishes fer guys on the feminine side.
usually sleepy when not sleeping.
loves starry nights.actually, im a night owl.:P
bad at telling lies.
paranoid
loves ben & jerry ice-cream
finds it hard to trust anyone, anymore.
cries pretty easily, but hate tearing infront of others.
has hots fer katherine moennig<3
loves my baby(:

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wah kao.WHO SAYS GOT FIREWORKS YTD ONE PLEASE OWN UP.
pian wo!!!!!!!!!!!
wenta esplanade with wen and mr. lama ytd.and mr. lama was horribly sunburnt and he got 2 currykueys at his neck.VERY FUGLY.=p
and when i was purposely commenting how very OBVIOUS is his currykueys in public areas,he said very loudly, "Ya lar! all your fault..tell you don't want already still go and make".



...WTF.
my reputation tarnished fer life.

think im getting sick.
i actually threw up ytd.FIRST TIME THROWING UP WHEN IM NOT DRUNK/TOUCHED ANY LIQUOR.(i think)
stomach hurts.im srsly scared that i may be getting liver cancer or kidney failure or stomach cancer.
i always have stomach pains out of the blue fer nth.and it hurts like helllllll.
wen told me to come along with her while she go fer her body checkup.cos i need one too.
*choy choy choy*

(back to the topic)
so anyways,thrs obviously no fireworks.ate at some foodcourt and huiwen bought all the super nice food cos she thinks that cha kway tiao is too low class fer us.-.-'' after me and mr lama almost finished the darn plate of cha kway tiao she said actually its hers.kwang kwang kwang~~~
i got physcoed by miss big head to go her hse to sleepover after mr lama left.
BLEAHS.







HER BROTHER'S BLANKET BOLSTER AND PILLOW IS SUPER SMELLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


omg.when i finally wanted to slp(which is ard 6plus in the morn) i REALLY had difficulty sleeping.i mean,i can't even breathe properly,how to sleep!!!
okay lar,yer not a bad host la.just that pls get me a clean set of bolsters and pillows next time pls.haha.

i've realised that recently my posts is always complaining abt sth.i'm always mad over sth,yada yada.
shit.whats wrong with me man? like all of a sudden im behaving like a spoilt brat.
or more like some 18yr old behaving like 12.


sorry ppl fer being so overly sensitive and so unreasonable recently.=/

aiights.im off to bed alr.just got back home only..
morn ppl!(:

meeting wen later to go watch fireworks.((((:



i wanna watch the maid.anyone willing to watch it with me? :P


to like is to love a lil.
to love is to like alot.

-tian tian dou xu yao ni ai,wo de xin zhi you ni zai.i love you,wo jiu si yao ni rang wo mei tian dou jin cai<3-

pls don't get the wrong idea-im definitely not interested.


don't make things awkward fer the both of us.

[Chorus Akon]
Don't look no farther!
Baby im back (yeah)
Im here to cater to you (anything that you want me: do ill do it)
Cause Ill be your lover (ill be your lover)
Ill be your best friend
Tell me what I gotta do (tell me what I gotta do and ill do it)

[Baby Bash]
Now im back in a flesh
Feelin so blessed, back in your corner suga, suga don't stress
Forget about the rest; let's go inside, im back in your zone
Baby im back in your vibe, now I cant be denied I can lie im on ya
I never ever wanna say sayonara
Somebody told me that the grass was greener
On the other side of lake haewa
Never really used to be a mean to cheat her
What I gotta do to be your keeper
These words comin out the speaker, true love is off the meter

[Chorus]
Don't look no farther!
Baby im back (yeah)
Im here to cater to you (anything that you want me: do ill do it)
Cause Ill be your lover (ill be your lover)
Ill be your best friend
Tell me what I gotta do (tell me what I gotta do and ill do it)

[Baby Bash]
I was gone for a minute but now im home,
Please forgive me for being a rolling stone,
Please forgive me let me polish it up like chrome,
Get off the phone till he swears to leave me alone,
Let my start your interest, now there's no more dating on the internet,
Cause you already know how I get it wet, how I get it so softly and I get respect,
You don't have to look no farther, you dealin with the hoe with your lada,
You don't have to look no farther, you hotter then a fire starter

[Chorus]
Don't look no farther!
Baby im back (yeah)
Im here to cater to you (anything that you want me: do ill do it)
Cause Ill be your lover (ill be your lover)
Ill be your best friend
Tell me what I gotta do (tell me what I gotta do and ill do it)

[Baby Bash]
I was gone for a minute, (oooohhh) [repeat x3]
Now im back let me hit it (oooohhh) [repeat x4]
[Chorus x2]

i really need a job right now.im sick of being broke all the time and relying on other ppl.


and i just fucking spend the money supposedly meant fer some other stuffs today.



no way i just go thr and get cheated right?
but WTF else can i do now?
ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.


*vexed*
so many shitty things in my mind right now,driving me nuts.

morning morning! :D got home from esplanade.wenta Friends Place ytd with wen and lama.and saw Gan Qing. haha..was told that veins dao bi ler.

after that we walked to some place whr thr are like tons of buildings/offices and some grassland in the middle.we just sat thr and be crazy.(: who cares when its fun,yea?haha..
ate at lau pat sat as usual..the string ray and that dunnoe what roll thing is goooooooooooooooddddddddd.
i stil prefer the bakuteh at MS.:P
stil got you tiao.heh.

and back to esplanade.i was whining to go some other place instead,but dunnoe whr else to go alr so stil head thr.so stil ended up thr.and i wasted 1.50 on some idiotic mushroom soup at 7-11 which taste like the bloody MASHED POTATO.nabei..nv refund me summore.;lasjf;asjd;fafjas
lol..


actually i wanted to complain abt sth,but i don't wanna spoil my mood.so yea (((:



i love running barefooted in esplanade.:D

"I'll Be There For You"

I guess this time you're really leaving
I heard your suitcase say goodbye
And as my broken heart lies bleeding
You say true love it's suicide

You say you're cried a thousand rivers
And now you're swimming for the shore
You left me drowning in my tears
And you won't save me anymore

Now I'm praying to God you'll give me one more chance, girl

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

I know you know we're had some good times
Now they have their own hiding place
I can promise you tomorrow
But I can't buy back yesterday

And Baby you know my hands are dirty
But I wanted to be your valentine
I'll be the water when you get thirsty, baby
When you get drunk, I'll be the wine

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

[Solo]

And I wan't there when you were happy
I wasn't there when you were down
I didn't mean to miss your birthday, baby
I wish I'd seen you blow those candles out

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you



i want the ashton kucher version,anyone has it? plssssss send me plsss...:/
its so sweet.heh..

Your IQ Is 105

Your Logical Intelligence is Above Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Above Average Your Mathematical Intelligence is Genius Your General Knowledge is Average

Part Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urges If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

Part Romantic Kisser

For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet

went to fisherman village ytd with one pek pek..LOL.(: nice place with nice ambience..music's great,so is the view.


too bad it closes very early.could have sat thr all night man..

i don't know what to blog.my mind is kinda blank now..lol.
played with the water and sand.fun fun funnnnnnn :D
hehs.


aiight,thats it fer now.
sudden loss fer words.:/

wenta some place ytd.it sucks man.
i don't wanna further elaborate.what the hell..

PMSy mood ytd.very irritated and easily dulan.i was trying very hard to suppress my temper,but i failed a couple of times.i don't understand why u always side with other ppl/team up with them everytime thrs just we 2 and another guy.guo he cai qiao leh!lol..
blehs.
maybe im just being too sensitive or i always want things MY way.or maybe i shldn't harp too much on it?:(

whatever.
i think im getting spoilt by my friends.they always give in to me after i whine or kpkb abit.:x sorry i was a lil overbearing these few days.or was it all the time? :/


anyway i got back my econs and pacc results.quite happy with it lar,got 78% and 100% respectively.i just hope my stats can pass.:/
i got alot of mosquitoe bites from the esplanade trip.what the hell..

and i just get y some ppl like to stereotype ppl.
thanks alot uh.just because i smoke and drink doesn't mean i do that all the time.

i hate being tou tou mo mo abt our friendship.
i hate being the one obstructing u and her.
i don't like the nickname w********,thx alot.





fuck it la.im just in a foul mood.:((

derrick is so damn cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee((((((:
i hope he can get back inside man.
anyways,while i was sitting down watching tv with my family and one crappy show came up,sth like gan gan lai yue hui.and my mom said,why not u join?
WTF?
Do i look like im desperately needing a bf now,hello?
sheesh.-.-''''''


and recently i was like kept mistaking ppl fer Him.the dreaded him.perhaps its cos my vision is kinda blurry lately,nt sure y,and some ppl just have his hairstyle or sth liddat lar.
and when i saw him,i was like practically having a panic attack.
ytd while leaving my house,i actually mistaken a maid as him.stupid,i know.i was like,freezing,legs planted on the ground and i just freaked out.
lucky i see wrongly.

i srsly don't know what wil happen if i really did man.fled?
i just hope i never will.don't think its necessary fer our paths to be crossed again.

:( stats suck!!!!! i think im failing. blehs.
but looking at the bright side...NO MORE PAPERS ANYMORE!!!(((: yay oh yay~

intended to study fer stats when i skipped all the stupid lectures..and i ended up playing.lol..ate at foodcourt..erm,5? i don't know..i was hungry so i just pulled wen along.bumped into some ass who pretend not to know me and cover his face somemore.fine...next time don't call me go sac find u.arse..

and proceed to play poooool at [what again?] some place in sp..and we actually played in the rain on our way thr. both got drenched like siao zhar bors before we reached thr..but its funnnn:) i love playing in the rain.
sick fetish of mine since young :P
erm.maybe not tt sick lar.

headed to clementi after the paper.i srsly think i screwed up big time man.farkkk..
the five of us are thr.oh and we played arcade.i noe..-.-'
all the machines are faulty,so it sucks.
i called lance while i was on my way thr due to some reasons.
winston refused to come dwn anyway.

oh yeas,i got the sickest dream last night.
ask me if u wanna noe.haha..
off to bathe.
tatas~


-i float like a butterfly,sting like a bee
to and fro,water in the sea,twilight sets me free.-

Even your closest friends will be shaking their heads, wondering what to do about you. And, why? You've suddenly taken to expressing what's on your mind, rather than passing it through your automatic polite filter.


..thats supposed to be my friendster horoscope forecast fer today.hate to say it,but its kinda accurate eh. :/ hmmms.ec is damn difficult,and i haven study fer stats.oh shiittttttt.i don't wanna study cos i simply don't feel like studying.i JUST CAN'T WAIT FER THIS WEEK TO END SO I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT TO.

and lance,yer not the only one.they called too.but i din ans:P
i stil suspect its a fraud.winston warned me k,he used to be the one that go ard in orchard road to find victims.haha..so well,be careful.
but it doesn't hurt to try lar.


was trying hard nt to doze off today.freaking tired.met up with cxm after my ec paper cos i don't feel like attending any more classes.
blehs.

i think i wil go study another hour of stats just before i sleep.
like in 15mins time.
if i can tell myself to,that is.

wtf.
one freaking bastard msged me and asked me all those obscene questions w/o letting me noe who is he.and when i refused to be bothered by his disgusting crap.he let me know who he was in the end,expecting me to reply him.


fucker.


felt like giving him one tight slap.
lost my mood to study fer ec tmr alr.blehs.im sleeping soon,cos im stil tired.



i hate playing mind games.

ytd was funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn((((((:


went out with r and m.(don't wanna say their names out to prevent some ppl from commenting.very annoying.)
we went to this chill out cafe at marina square whr they got songerssingers[typo error whoops] to sing all the songs u dedicate or sth liddat.okay lar,their voices are pretty nice,but they sang mostly chinese songs.:( and the drinks are ridiculously expensive.
....i rather go some pub with live band.


anyways,went arcade after that.feel so out of place..haha.and we are playing the game which involves pushing each other and i was like screaming and just being noisy.lol..
i won anyway.
muahahaha..

after that headed to clarke quay,supposedly to play pool.but headed to a karaoke pub instead.thr's this table next to us that is fucking noisy.as in they are like sprouting vulgarities and was saying sth about whacking someone(in the same pub). the guy who's like yelling vulgarities at the top of his lungs looks like he can be my father.
i guess some people just never grow up.
he just wanted to find trouble,he even wanted to get the number from a lady who's bf is just sitting next to her.WTF?
anyway,we stayed in thr til it close,and nth much happened except that guy borrowed the mike from us when its our turn to sing to shout sth to the people downstairs.-.-''

headed to lau pat sat next to eatttttt :D i was going into a nearby 7-11 to buy some stuffs when the 2 asses just go hide in the bushes instead of following me.and my wallet was with them.so i came out,looking fer them like an idiot.so paiseh,i was like crossing the road,loitering ard..like some lost kid.and people were watching..

m wanted to go home after supper,and he needs to catch the bus.so we walked back to the stretch of road(back to the pub)and guess what? we saw the bunch of guys..and police.lol..they looked injured.guess they lose the fight.and one of them actually said to the police,:'they are there u can ask them' or sth like that.'
huh?
lucky the police din approach us.
so after m boarded the bus me and r went east coast fer pool.
his gf was calling him nonstop and its super irritating.EVEN threatened to commit suicide?hello?
she don't even noe im ard,doh.

i can't stand these kinda girls who called over fer nth,and expect their bfs to be at hm.if they are out,they will then start quarrelling and say yer with another girl(OK la its true i noe but its really fren-fren basis right) and after that accused them of being unfaithful and using breakup as a threat.when the guy got fed up and just agree to breaking up she wil proceed to threaten to kill herself.



WHAT THE FUCK?
i was so annoyed i almost snatch the fone from him but i realised he told her he wasn't with any girls.and i don't wanna make things worse,so.

reached home ard 730 in da morning..
its been a loooooonnnggggg,long time since i came home when i see the sun rising.(:

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did i ever i hate studying?
especially at home,on a saturday???



A;JDF;ASWEIURPQWLSA;DJFSAF i wanna go out!!!!
i think i will,later.

stats just suck.

im STARVING!
what the hell..don't even know whr my parents is.THRS NO BREAKFAST FER ME!:((((
its a friggin cold morn,been sneezing non-stop.


weird dreams ytd.AGAIN..this time is much,much worse. i dreamt of that $%@#^@6%&#%*35 and ............
i think i've said enough.heh..

ughs.whatever.i shall go and find some food..

laters.
<3

The singer finished singing and she's walking out
The singer sheds a tear fear of falling out
And it's hard to say how i feel today
Our years gone by, and i cry

It's hard to say that i was wrong
It's hard to say i miss you
Since you've been gone it's not the same

My worries weigh the world how i used to be
And everything in cold seems a plague in me
And its hard to say how i feel today
Our years gone by, and i cry

It's hard to say that i was wrong
It's hard to say i miss you
Since you've been gone it's not the same
It's hard to say i have my
It's hard to say if only
Since you've been gone it's not the same

Words that i fear is the lie i told a thousand times before
Words that i fear is the night
But it's hard to say how i feel today
Our years gone by, and i cry

It's hard to say that i was wrong
It's hard to say i miss you
Since you've been gone it's not the same
It's hard to say i have my tongue
It's hard to say if only
Since you've been gone i'm not the same
It's hard to say (god it's hard to say)
Since you've been gone, i'm not the same

back home early fer a friday night.even my mum's shocked.haha.
i need to study fer my stats,wake up early fer tmr.sian.im having difficulty trying to understand all those crap.blehs.


met up with cxm today b4 my class.(: he's gentleman enough to walk me to my classroom..heh.
and i got back my mob paper.din do well..but i managed to pass la.haha..got a 70%.
but my classmates are like so damn hardworking,everyone scored quite well..sighs.feel abit pressurized..come on man,its only year 1!!!
dohs.

meet up with wen after sch fer the job interview thingy.and headed home straight.
was feeling a lil light-headed now.must be the lack of good sleep.
was having really bad dreams recently.
i don't even wanna talk about it.its kinda disturbing..

blehs.i hate studying.

yay! i don't hafta go to sch tmr (:
actually thr's stil 1 hour lecture on econs,but its really stupid just to go thr fer that one hour.and the lecturer CAN'T TEACH.so ferget it.

yay yay yay im going to slp as much as i wanna before i go outtttttt...heh.


met up with wen today to clementi to get bl hp back from that bastard who i don't even know what his name is. turns out he's not werking morn shift. -.-
and headed to meet rae afta that as wen go and meet someone else.
almost went rush today..but i tot thr's sch tmr..so din.
turns out its cancelled.
heck...


and omg one ass actually msged me.actually its ytd,but i was too pissed off abt some other stuffs that i don't feel like blogging.
stil got the cheek to say what 'long time nv contact..kinda miss u..hehe'PUI LAR!
stil can ask me if i miss him..disgusting shit.

got gf liao stil so........
fang jian.


i think guys that werk in the police force ain't any good.cos so far,3 guys i've known,2 r rotten to the core.AND NO LANCE IM NT TRYIN TO SAY YER THE PERFECT ONE COS YER NOT.
just that yer rotten halfway.


:D

what the fucking hell.

some ppl just like to make a fuss outta a small thing.
bitchhhh.


i sense a quarrel coming up again. u GUYS just don't freaking understand me AT ALL.
if u guys think i can't be bothered with this friendship and the kind that always fang fei ji,go ahead.
i don't feel like explaining anymore.

upload a new song.i think its sweet.so unlike groove coverage to have this kinda song..

my dad bought durians!!! :D


pacc is easy.lucky i din study.:P not sure if i can score but at least im quite sure i can pass. phew.


and im starting to love my class(:

going to sentosa on sat.can't wait.

lance came all the way to sengkang and it turns out to be a wasted trip.
tsk tsk,the power of love...

really can make someone STUPID...
haha.:P don't kill me.

pacc's paper is tmr.and i don't give a damn about it.bleh.wil study tmr during my break.feel like skipping mob's tutorial as well.crap.gotta wake up at 7..-.-'.
sighs.sians.

was watching the haunting just now.yea i watched it before in the cinema and its bullshit.but just wanna pass time.its nice to just relax at home and not go out some time.(: i feel sooooooooooo lazy.but its stil nice.

i can't wait fer my school's vacation.2 more weeks to go...and im freeeee! fer a week,that is.and it wil be time fer me to catch up with my school werk also.:P


i feel like meeting up with my old pals.haven been seeing shi and mc fer a long time.
and meili..sl..and the stupid cxm.

:D

watch this.


its a sad,sad world..

i think i may just quit eating meat altogether.
maybe.

at least fer now,kfc chickens.

woohoooooooooooo.




im flunking my econs,tts fer sure.
well,i hope not la.but the paper is HARRRRRRDDDDDDDD.
and i came in 15mins late.so its kinda unfair :(
at least i did finish my paper unlike the freakin mob.
was so damn shaaaaaaaagggggged after the paper and decided to head home.
hell,they expect us to come to school 9am in the morning ON A SATURDAY?
i NEVER attend classes that starts at 9,i swear.
and actually the tot of skipping the paper and taking the retest did cross my mind.because its SATURDAY,i shld be home sleeping,and i din study fer it AT ALL,and i din sleep well last night as my conscience is pricking me.i ended up feeling so damn guilty fer nt studying fer the econs tt i practically stay awake the whole bloody night.but i stil didn't manage to get my ass up to flip on the light to study.
whatever.


and i bumped into lance.nt really,we took the same mrt train w/o knowing tt each other were on it until wen told us.which is really weird cos i dun even know how the hell she knows which train im in.anyway,lance called and i suggested to alight first and meet up and enter the next train coming.the train was goddamn cramped with ppl anyway.talked on our way to city hall.i actually wanted to go kbox and go get my breakie or something,but i decided tt i can get it on my way hm and im too darn tired to waste any time.
on our way thr,im stupid enough to spill the white lie i told him and someone in particular.whooooops.
i actually thought i only told the other guy,so i was happily telling him tt i lied to guy2 tt i couldn't go out etc etc and he was like 'u told me tt too.' -.-'''!!!
can't blame me kays..im too tooo tired to keep going out every single day.:D

went back home,grabbed a big mac on the way,and after i eaten and everything, i just collapsed on my bed and slept like a baby.
the thing is,i fergot to even bathe.
okay shut up.i changed the sheets after everything,aiight?lol..

off fer tv (8

meet lance today...


im really very tired!!! almost fall asleep while waiting fer him.i think i really need a break ler.always going out..
and i got nagged by my mum.
hais...
and im really really broke.i din spend much,but im stil broke.stil owe lance money..
die..

guess things are really different now.we're all bz with our lives..
its just so weird.

went hg plaza play pool..walked all the way to sengkang.wanted to walk to compasspoint but i got lost.:P
so take lrt...
went thr de coffeebean to chill.
brought back old memories.. at mos. :/
with someone else la.


sighs..

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.

There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,I will never be with you.



-taken from you're beautiful by james blunt

came back from town.

haven been online these few days cos im coming home late.


skipped school today and wenta kbox to find lance to keng gai. afta tt wenta meet rae.


t-i-r-e-d!!!!


oh yea,i managed to find someone to pei me watched alot like love.its super touching.i actually cried. i tot they can't be together or something..its just so nice la.(: and i watched war of the worlds too.its quite nice la,just tt the ending is VERY crappy. i still preferred alot like love.


i need to find a job.but then exams are soooooo stressing me out. and im nt sure if i can juggle or not. everyone noes i can't do without enough sleep. blehs.
i need to help out in the family.:(


wenta partybox recently to visit anne. i dunnoe, i don't quite like tt place. and beer stil suck.
plus im stil quite sick.
my cough just never goes away!!! :(


life is pretty weird recently.i just don't know how to say.its like im nt giving a shit about anything.exams are coming,and i just don't care.
school suck.srsly.

i suck.

annnnnnddddddd guys suck too.man,how i wish i don't know all these crap.
how to ever trust guys anymore!!!
srsly,ignorance is bliss.i think i will be wayy happier if i don't know all these stuffs.
seems like no matter hw good the guy seems,they wil just NEVER be faithful.
and whennnnn girls zhao sai they kpkb.wtf?


roy says, 'this is never a fair world.'


i JUST refused to accept that.i don't know why.i can't accept why guys always think its their fucking right to cheat.come on lar, don't bullshit what 'nah im just playing/fooling around i don't like her at all' crap,cos its fucked up.its srsly fucked up.even if its true,i think its quite unfair to the girl whom u're happening to just be fooling around with,don't u think?
hah.i made it sound like it happened to me.
i just can't believe i actually knew these kinda ppl.

maybe they r all around,just that i din know it.
im disgusted,and suddenly i think im not ready to face this ugly world yet.
and im starting to think,maybe cos he was lonely,tts y he started giving me all these wrong signals.
but WHYYYYYY the fuck did he called that very fucking day when he patched up with his girlfriend?

why....



i just can't let it go.



jerks.

my mood is extremely fucked up.



stuck at home the whole damn day.its saturday,mind u.all becos my CAs are coming up.wtf man,its been hardly one month since i just started sch and CAs are here.and its 20percent.wtf..
and my bloody throat.my tonsils are so damn swollen until it hurts so damn bad whenever i tried to swallow even my own saliva.
fuck.


i haven been touching ciggs fer one whole week alr.
it stil won't go away!!!
im coughing pretty badly,my blocked nose is being a ass especially everytime i slp.
and every morn when i woke up i wil feel realllllllyyyyyyy horrible.from hafing nt enough rest and if i tried to swallow,it HURTS.really bad.and i will feel very dehydrated.

and i feel so sucky.


now is it my imagination or everyone i know are attached alr?
and perhaps its due to influence,i've been thinking quite abit about the past lately..
i was given lots of chances to ask him to stay,but i chose another path.
he was given alot of chances to voice out how he feel and tell me really whr i stand,but he didn't.

life.




this is to someone in particular.
look,girl.if u think im being unfair to u treating u this way,have u ever tot if its FAIR of u to think of me that way?
i don't think so,eh? i think being angry and just ignoring u and giving me space and time to cool down isn't very much to ask fer,i think.u accused me of being a total bitch.im not sad,im not just hurt.
im UTTERLY disappointed in you.
u can think of 'is this being fair to me' but did u ever think if its very fair to ME when u started thinking of all those crappy nonsense which i wasn't even sure whr u get tt fr? u said u were being oversensitive,perhaps so.but i think the most impt factor is tt YOU JUST DON'T TRUST ME.
all these while u secretly think tt im a lying,two-faced bitch tryin to spoil friendship between ppl.
isnt it?




just go think about it.

feeling fucked up.



i wanna go clubbing..
i feel so stressed up,so caged up.





i wan to hear the loud techno...i wan to be in the dark...
kla;sjdf;ajf;jagl;kjaskjdgowueroipsadf


fergive my weakness,but i don't know why.without u,its hard to survive.

am i hafing some hidden sickness or what?



that bloody sorethroat NV goes away. and my eyes...sometimes it has this haze-like thing blocking my vision.and my left eye is hurting.omg,issit cos my contact lense hurt my cornea or sth?


mob's on monday and i haven even started.im nt even intending to study today,im too tired.
i've been waking up earlier den i expected.
waaaaaayyyyy before my alarm.
like 5am in the morn? when i slept late the night before.
and i can't go back to slp even when i want to.


perhaps thr is really something wrong...
sighs.




its kinda ironic,a self-claimed strong friendship can actually be tested just by a few days of absence.