Friday, November 24, 2006
often, i thought that my life will be just... plain. in a sense, kinda anyway. i din expected anything to happen, to me or any of my loved ones. life will just go on fer us, some small shitty things happening to us once in a while, we complained and whine about how much we've suffered from it and that's it.
it never occurred to me that
this could happen to. it's so surreal, that i kept thinking that perhaps that it's just a very long nightmare that i never seemed to be able to wake up from. all of the sudden, everything just came crashing down when i'm at my happiest. why?
it's hard to pretend to be alright when i'm not. i'm trying, in fact, very hard. god, its like i'm acting in some fucking drama. i guess i will learn to get used to the idea that it really is happening to me. and instead of being mopping over it, i gotta cherish every single second spent with you. i'm going to miss you alot, really alot.