Sunday, August 27, 2006
often in life, people make mistakes.
funny thing is that, i'm often the one escaped unscathed and the ones around me got badly hurt. i don't want it to be like this.
anyways, im gonna warn u guys that this is a i-hate-myself emo post so its not too late to close the window.
not that i've never warn u..
why? maybe i'm just selfish, i just want my freedom. when things just don't go the way i wanted them to, i will just tend to run away from them. is it that i'm too headstrong to give in or just that i just want to do whatever i want without having to think about how the other people will feel? somebody told me once, that if i've loved the person enough, i would be willing to sacrifice. is it so? so i just love my freedom so much that i couldn't let anything else in the world to take it away from me? even if it's just a lil bit of it?
history has repeated itself over and over again, and the problem always lies with me. well, more or less la.
maybe i'm a perfectionist? i got in mind what kinda person my the other half should be, and whoever that is going out with me outta live up to my standards?
thats not really true..
UGH!!!
i don't know why i'm like that.
its no use crying over spilled milk, and i'm telling myself not to feel guilty, for what is done cannot be undone. but its useless!
ugh. and i actually felt bad fer critising wing like that. i just found out that she actually has heart defects and shes quitting nightlife for good.
i'm so evil. :(