Friday, November 25, 2005
tiring day.
okay, IM werking at amk kbox...
buttttttt. it wil most probably be my last day there werking tomorrow.
so yep. thanks fer even thinking about visiting me.
im stil considering whether to quit or not, but the answers are like staring point-blank at me.
am i soooooo weak that i can't even withstand abit of hardship?
that i can't even stand strong?
or what?
seriously, i do enjoy werking at times, but sometimes i just don't have a single clue what is there fer me to do.
kinda makes me feel unwanted.
just being there and getting in the way of others.
and the ah bengs customers there are freaking scary.
its just not me, i don't like talking to people i don't know okay.
not when the first thing u said when u opened ur mouth is 'what's ur number arh?'
WTF.
do i look like im some kinda call-girl or what?
and i think joey had enough of me.
sighs.
wen and anne came over to my blk just now, anne prolly did it outta goodwill to try and help us out, but it turned out to be a waste of her efforts.
im sorry, i know u got problems of ur own and while u're trying to help when u're totally shagged and all u got was the both of us refusing to be serious.
thanks alot, and i'm sorry.
i'm tired.finding another bloody job soon. now the thing is, HOW TO TELL HER?
fuck.
i feel like i'm letting her down somehow.
im pissed with her and her stupid attp today tho.
its time to wake up.
i've been asleep fer a fuckin long time.
BE SERIOUS,or sth.
im just wasting my life away.
din go sch again today.
wenta yc hse and slackeddddddddd.(:
im gonna vow to myself to START going to school from next week onwards.
i have to!!!
no matter how badly i lacked of sleep. no matter of whatever bullshit.
I GOTTA MOTIVATE MYSELF!!!:(
sighs.
waiting fer sunday to come.
