Friday, August 19, 2005
zzzz.darn that stupid econs tutor.
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH HIM.is he fucking blind or he just likes me too much.
ugh.not going to harp on it again and again.so if u wanna know,ask me.if i feel like ranting all over again,i will tell ya.
went over to wen's house to play ps2. and we got into a silly arguement on photos and passport..shan't further elaborate.i was trying to help in a way..
perhaps im self-centered.
perhaps im too selfish.
perhaps im just too arrogant,too sure of myself to give a damn about others.
BUT I SWEAR I WAS,IN MY OWN WAY,TRYING TO HELP.no im not blaming her fer seeing it my way.
i've been trying hard to stop this foolish behaviour of mine recently,and i realised its hard.its hard to understand people when our thinking just aint on the same wavelength.i think whats im doing is right,and she/he disagree.and vice versa.
maybe even when they finally did explain themself,i will go 'wtf? is THAT all? i can't believe yer so childish/stubborn/naive/stupid/petty/and-whatever negative that comes out from my brain'. i always say how i felt at that time,maybe nt to the same person.but just find someone to confide,to pour out ur frustrations.and when the misunderstanding clears and we are friends, who won't tends to overlook that whatever petty mistake that the other had committed?
who like bearing grudges?
so tell me, am i really a hypocrite?
i just couldn't see it.
im not pin-pointing anyone out there,i think i have a problem.attitude problem,perhaps. i cared fer things that i shldnt really care fer,and im freaking insensitive to those i shld. believe me when i say im really trying hard to try and think the same way as u guys.
u can say im doing some soul-searching and im not getting any answers.
and im getting a lil frustrated.
