Saturday, July 02, 2005
my mood is extremely fucked up.
stuck at home the whole damn day.its saturday,mind u.all becos my CAs are coming up.wtf man,its been hardly one month since i just started sch and CAs are here.and its 20percent.wtf..
and my bloody throat.my tonsils are so damn swollen until it hurts so damn bad whenever i tried to swallow even my own saliva.
fuck.
i haven been touching ciggs fer one whole week alr.
it stil won't go away!!!
im coughing pretty badly,my blocked nose is being a ass especially everytime i slp.
and every morn when i woke up i wil feel realllllllyyyyyyy horrible.from hafing nt enough rest and if i tried to swallow,it HURTS.really bad.and i will feel very dehydrated.
and i feel so sucky.
now is it my imagination or everyone i know are attached alr?
and perhaps its due to influence,i've been thinking quite abit about the past lately..
i was given lots of chances to ask him to stay,but i chose another path.
he was given alot of chances to voice out how he feel and tell me really whr i stand,but he didn't.
life.
this is to someone in particular.
look,girl.if u think im being unfair to u treating u this way,have u ever tot if its FAIR of u to think of me
that way?
i don't think so,eh? i think being angry and just ignoring u and giving me space and time to cool down isn't very much to ask fer,i think.u accused me of being a total bitch.im not sad,im not just hurt.
im UTTERLY disappointed in you.
u can think of 'is this being fair to me' but did u ever think if its very fair to ME when u started thinking of all those crappy nonsense which i wasn't even sure whr u get tt fr? u said u were being oversensitive,perhaps so.but i think the most impt factor is tt YOU JUST DON'T TRUST ME.
all these while u secretly think tt im a lying,two-faced bitch tryin to spoil friendship between ppl.
isnt it?
just go think about it.
